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Tea swag niggaz.
Oh My!
:D
3:30PM
Such a beautiful day! Fall is in the air! :D
12:29AM
You are secretive and distrusting of others. Yet you are a gentleman and always understanding. You are one of the very few who I can actually talk to, even if you are not always open. You keep things locked away like I do. Guarded, in a very cautious way. You keep this darkness hidden and watch it very closely. There is a wall that prevents anyone to enter inside, and you keep a close watch on anything spilling out. Sometimes it surprises me. It is like looking into a mirror of myself not too long ago.
Can you accept me as I am?
You are so much better than I am. But I want you to open me up like how one opens up a book, to examine the pages of my life and consume them whole. I want you to see me, understand me, accept me. I am not much, nothing at all. I continuously sit in tormenting silence waiting for your judgement.
Am I just some passing fancy? I certainly hope not.
I want to please you. I want to make you happy. Can you accept me as I am?
I drink because I’m alone too fucking much. But other than that I fucking love beer.
3:27AM
Dear Person From So Long Ago,
I forgot to thank you.
Thank you for destroying my self image. Thank you for making me a nervous wreck. I can now consistently look over my shoulder, I can now have doubts. Thank you for telling me how awful I was, how naive and stupid, how I just never got anything right.
I can now question myself and my relationships with others. I now over-think things. I care too much about the happiness of others at my expense. I have horrible self-appreciation.
Again, thank you SO FUCKING MUCH.
Much Obliged,
Megan
2:32AM
I am feeling much more happier.
